A Minute with Mo

I am normally very into the whole Christmas spirit and holidays but I'm just not feeling it this season. *Shrugs*  I've got to get it together because I don't want to be a Scrooge or Grinch when I have so much to be thankful and grateful for. This is the time that everybody is supposed to be happy and cheerful and I'm feeling kind of sad and alone...First holiday season in a long time that we've had to spend alone and I think that has a lot to do with it. :( All I can hope for is that it gets easier with time and I come around.... on the bright side at least I put up a tree, no? Ah well, I tried.

Sometimes I just do that when I don't know what else to do. I'm in some kind of mood right now but I don't know how to explain it so I figured I'd try to write it out of me. This year for lent I decided to give up Facebook (I knoooooooooow) and I can see a lot of the positive ways that it has helped me already and I'm only about halfway through the 46 days.  I have had a lot more time to spend with my daughter, visiting family and friends, making real-time connections with people via phone call versus a wall post and it just has been really good. Another thing that it has allowed me to do (which I'm still trying to decide if its positive or negative) is have more time to be left with me... and my thoughts... So, I'm at home and I've cleaned and put my daughter to bed and just sat on my couch to enjoy my handiwork and just enjoy ME and doing nothing for a change and I felt sad all of a sudden.  I couldnt put my finger on it at first but I came to reali...